Alone with Your Thoughts

You’re sitting on the side of the bed or looking at yourself in the mirror… and you're thinking, what does it all mean? What am I doing here? What is the big picture? What is my purpose? What if? Can life just put it all in layman’s terms for us, please? You would think that I would be an expert by now at 32 years old. But, I’m not. Shocker. I don’t have all the answers, yet. I am not sure anyone has it all figured out.

What I can tell you is this: when it’s so quiet that you can hear your thoughts, those are the moments that are truly gold. Those are the moments that change your trajectory. You can go from running on the corporate hamster wheel one moment to being fully present around the people you love. You can be in “Robot Mode” one moment (my term for when you have to detach, put your head down, and grind) and then, the next, you're Dorthy seeing all the beautiful things around you in full color. Or the opposite can be true. You can be out having the time of your life with your friends, but then you realize that they don't treat you how you treat them. These moments wake you up.

So, it's up to you to decide your next move. Before I turn off my lamp and get into bed, I decide for myself that I need to be more intentional with my life. I need to be more honest about what I want and what makes me happy. Not when someone asks me, “What flavor of ice cream would you like?” Although, I would love some ice cream and that's a thoughtful question. What I mean is the kind of honesty that is unsolicited and from the heart. The kind that radiates confidence and self-awareness. The kind that makes you feel warm when you meet someone for the first time. That je ne sais quoi.